Raining 'Season'

It has been raining non stop for the pass 12 hours or so, and it makes travelling difficult especially those that have to rely on the public transport. I don't know why, but the traffic gets really bad during rainy days. Is it because people are being extra careful? I don't know. I hope everyone back home isn't affected by the rain.

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An Official Engineer!!!

Since this February, I have became a graduate engineer. Well, not really still waiting for my convocation in March. The journey of becoming an engineer is not easy, travelled pass a few bumps, but I've finally made it to the destination. And I am proud of it. VERY PROUD.

Quick Update

Well, nothing significant had happen for the past few months. I'm getting better now, not missing Melbourne as much as I used to, but I still miss it. Other than that, nothing much. Just finished with my exam last week, and no, I won't talk about it.
Oh... I'm working part time now, as a research assistant, continuing my research project during the semester. The best part of this? I get paid quite handsomely. That means more savings for my cellphone/camera fund. One step closer to getting what I've been longing for. I'm not quite sure what cellphone I'm going to get, but it'll be a 4G phone for sure.

Well, that would be all the updates I have. Over and out.

Missing Melbourne

Coming back from Melbourne for almost three months now, and I miss it more than ever. Everything I do, memories of me in Melbourne, the life that I had there, the things that I did, floods my mind. I never knew that I would miss Melbourne this much.

When ever I heard I Gotta Feeling by Black Eyed Peas, I would thought of the journey to Lake Entrance. Miss Q was the driver, Mr S sitting at the passenger sit, me and Miss F at the back seats. The questions Miss Q asked Mr S, how she stopped him from answering the question, just to listen to the song. Or the times we spent on the road trip to Mount Dandenong and Mornington when I hear the song Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson.

The life in Melbourne is totally different from here. I don't know how to put it in words.

Everything I do, I'm reminded of the times I had there. I thought this is normal at first, but it escalate, till a point that tears runs down my cheek every single time I thought of it. This is more than I could handle.

I know very well that no one reads my blog, but if you do, please tell me how to stop this. I would really appreciate it.

Things That I Never Should Have Done

There are many things that I regret doing. But there are two mistakes I've done in particular that I regret doing the most.

• Confiding my personal thought to her

Since I'm young, I keep all my personal feelings and thought to myself. Never have I tell them to anyone, including my family. This year while I was in Melbourne, I met a girl, X. She is a person that, well I can say, very caring. She made me feel that I can trust and count on her. She always ask for my inner feelings:" What are you thinking? Tell me how you feel." Of course, I refuse to tell her at first. But after awhile, I gave in. I started to tell her, but not everything, only those that I thought it's not that important.

When I do that, I would expect X to understand and be there for me whenever I need someone to talk to. Well, at first she did. But as time passes, I can feel that there is a gap between us. She is no more the person that listens. She changed? She got fed up of it? These are the questions that I thought could explain it. She disappoints me. Maybe I expected too much from a regular person, but those are the conditions that I've set, if they want to know my inner feelings. And I expect them to honor it.

Now, I'm suffering. I've grown so used to confiding to her whenever I'm in a bad mood. It makes me suffer not being able to tell someone about those things anymore. I guess I would have to get use to keeping those feelings to myself from now on. I'm going to change myself back to the way I was before knowing her.

• Studying with a group of friends in the computer laboratory

I've always prefer to study alone with nothing but a table, a chair and drinking water, because it makes me concentrate. The two down side of studying in the computer laboratory are computers and people. Whenever there is computer around, I would surf the net, Facebook, read news and watch YouTube. The second down side, people. You see, when I'm studying, I want a total silence in the room. No music, no chats. So when there are people in the room, there would be conversations and I cannot make myself to stop listening to their conversations. All these make me not able to concentrate.

Despite knowing it, I still continue going there every single day. I thought I can cope with it, but my results showed otherwise. I did not do well in this semester. There are other reasons that contribute to my poor results, but in my point of view, this is the main factor.

I hope that I would not repeat these two mistake I've done this year. Hopefully next year would be a better year for me.

Over and out.

Things That I Miss

It's been a while,

As my last post said, I went to Melbourne. But now I'm back, back to the place I call home. Spending around 10 months in Melbourne, I've gotten so used to the living lifestyle there, that I'm starting to miss it.

Coming back for almost a month now, the thing I miss most about Melbourne is the freedom that I had. No incoming call from parent every 5 minutes if I was out till late at night, didn't need to get permission if I want to go out, I can spend on what whatever I want whenever I want, those kind of stuff.

Besides the freedom, I also miss the food there. ANGUS BURGER!!! It's the best burger I've ever tasted from McDonald's. Juicy beef with bacon, garnish with pickles and onions. YUMMY!!! I miss drinking also. Beers, wines and liquor. Don't get me wrong, I don't go pubs or clubs nor do I get drunk. People who drink until they are drunk are crazy and jeopardizing their health. I don't to that. I only drink alone, or with some friends during dinner or when we talk at night, and I limit the amount I take each time. I know my limits.

What else I miss... Can't think of any at the moment. But I sure don't miss the study life there. It doesn't suits me. Or maybe I just didn't do a good job at managing my time. Don't know.

Well, that'll be all for now. Over and out.