Things That I Never Should Have Done

There are many things that I regret doing. But there are two mistakes I've done in particular that I regret doing the most.

• Confiding my personal thought to her

Since I'm young, I keep all my personal feelings and thought to myself. Never have I tell them to anyone, including my family. This year while I was in Melbourne, I met a girl, X. She is a person that, well I can say, very caring. She made me feel that I can trust and count on her. She always ask for my inner feelings:" What are you thinking? Tell me how you feel." Of course, I refuse to tell her at first. But after awhile, I gave in. I started to tell her, but not everything, only those that I thought it's not that important.

When I do that, I would expect X to understand and be there for me whenever I need someone to talk to. Well, at first she did. But as time passes, I can feel that there is a gap between us. She is no more the person that listens. She changed? She got fed up of it? These are the questions that I thought could explain it. She disappoints me. Maybe I expected too much from a regular person, but those are the conditions that I've set, if they want to know my inner feelings. And I expect them to honor it.

Now, I'm suffering. I've grown so used to confiding to her whenever I'm in a bad mood. It makes me suffer not being able to tell someone about those things anymore. I guess I would have to get use to keeping those feelings to myself from now on. I'm going to change myself back to the way I was before knowing her.

• Studying with a group of friends in the computer laboratory

I've always prefer to study alone with nothing but a table, a chair and drinking water, because it makes me concentrate. The two down side of studying in the computer laboratory are computers and people. Whenever there is computer around, I would surf the net, Facebook, read news and watch YouTube. The second down side, people. You see, when I'm studying, I want a total silence in the room. No music, no chats. So when there are people in the room, there would be conversations and I cannot make myself to stop listening to their conversations. All these make me not able to concentrate.

Despite knowing it, I still continue going there every single day. I thought I can cope with it, but my results showed otherwise. I did not do well in this semester. There are other reasons that contribute to my poor results, but in my point of view, this is the main factor.

I hope that I would not repeat these two mistake I've done this year. Hopefully next year would be a better year for me.

Over and out.

Things That I Miss

It's been a while,

As my last post said, I went to Melbourne. But now I'm back, back to the place I call home. Spending around 10 months in Melbourne, I've gotten so used to the living lifestyle there, that I'm starting to miss it.

Coming back for almost a month now, the thing I miss most about Melbourne is the freedom that I had. No incoming call from parent every 5 minutes if I was out till late at night, didn't need to get permission if I want to go out, I can spend on what whatever I want whenever I want, those kind of stuff.

Besides the freedom, I also miss the food there. ANGUS BURGER!!! It's the best burger I've ever tasted from McDonald's. Juicy beef with bacon, garnish with pickles and onions. YUMMY!!! I miss drinking also. Beers, wines and liquor. Don't get me wrong, I don't go pubs or clubs nor do I get drunk. People who drink until they are drunk are crazy and jeopardizing their health. I don't to that. I only drink alone, or with some friends during dinner or when we talk at night, and I limit the amount I take each time. I know my limits.

What else I miss... Can't think of any at the moment. But I sure don't miss the study life there. It doesn't suits me. Or maybe I just didn't do a good job at managing my time. Don't know.

Well, that'll be all for now. Over and out.

A Change of Environment

Hello,

I had leave a place that I called home, to a total unfamiliar place called Melbourne. I will be here for a year, well at least about a year. I've got a place in inter-campus exchange to Melbourne to continue my studies.

This is my first time in Melbourne and first time in Australia. As some may have already know, Australia is at the end of summer, going into Autumn. One thing that Melbourne is famous for is the unpredictable weather. It may be ice cold at one moment, but ice cold on the next. I wasn't really prepare for the weather even though friends and family warned me. I'm still getting use to the weather, give me a bit of time, I will.

I'm staying on-campus (for now, until I decide to move out). The room is fairly small compared to the others on the same floor. It only has the basic furniture, bed, wardrobe, study table, chair, book shelf, mirror, heater, bedside table and a portable clothes hanging rack. I don't know how where should I put my printer, as there are not more space in my room.

That would be all for now. I'll be back soon (fingers cross).